Fauna
noun \ˈfȯ-nə, ˈfä-\
animal life; especially : the animals characteristic of a region, period, or special environment
They
say in the moments before you die, your whole life will flash before
your eyes. In the moments before we became “we” my entire future flashed
before mine. I just knew, we were destined to be a family.
It
was exactly at 8:51am on August 14th, 2010, that she took her first
breath. Still attached to my body she blinked and looked around. There
we were. A trio. A tribe. A family. Her face, a face I had never seen
before, was so familiar. Her expressions were her own but generations of
family showed through. She looked just like her daddy with a touch of
myself.
As
she grows the connection between my husband and I is apparent. It is in
her face. She has grown to look a lot like my baby pictures. But those
eyes, those giant, expressive, intoxicating blue eyes. Those came from
her father. My face with his eyes. We are forever joined in her face.
Growing
up I didn’t have much contact with my biological father, the one parent
I so closely resembled. I was surrounded by siblings and cousins who
looked like their parents. I felt a little like an outsider. I craved
that connection. That undeniable link to my people.
And
now I have it. The small person that I created with the man I love.
Undeniably mine. She not only physically resembles the both of us, she
also has our mannerisms. A product of her environment.
I no longer crave a connection. I created one. Me. My husband. My daughter.
They are my people.
And such a beautiful family. <3
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