Inspired by Luminous Traces, I decided to start my own version for writers. I asked Andee to help me and within 2 weeks we were up and running. I finally had a place to practice and be amongst my peers.Watching this idea blossom and unfurl into the beautiful site that it is now has been breathtaking. It has become bigger and brighter than I ever imagined.
As I sat down to write this week's post, I became blank. Overwhelmed. Blocked. The more frustrated with myself I felt, the more blocked and uninspired I became. This was supposed to be my spring session swan song. My piece that would really show who I am as a writer. Instead, all I could think about was how I couldn't think.
Just as the seasons are slowly shifting so are many aspects of my life and family. Even though the change is good and exciting, it is still overwhelming. It has taken up every corner of space in my head, including the places where my inspiration and words live. They are been squeezed out and in their place is the unknown.
I took a step away from my computer. I looked around. Inspiration was everywhere. My daughter. My husband. The love I feel for them both. That it is, I thought. I would write about love. How it is the vein that runs through everything I do. How it inspires me and lifts me up. So, I sat back down and started to write.
It didn't work. As quickly as the inspiration flowed in, the overwhelming stress of a whole lot of changes swept it away.
I trashed the three lines I wrote and stared at the blank page in front of me. I had nothing to say. I closed my eyes and drew in a deep breath. This project, this website, was something I dreamed of. Something that brings me so much joy. I am surrounded by incredibly talented people. People who, every week, make me laugh, make me cry, make me inspired. I refused to let it make me frustrated. I love it here.
There it was. So simple. My inspiration is them. It's you. It is everyone who made Literary Traces happen.
It is everyone who believes in me.
Everyone I believe in.
Everyone who loves me.
Everyone I love.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
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